My Darling Foster: I know if you are up in heaven looking down that you know how much I am missing you. Holidays were always were favorite times, especially Christmas. You were so happy buying gifts and planning for family get togethers. You will never know how much I miss the "little things". Even though I have moved away from the house we shared, the loneliness wraps me like skin and chokes me till I think I can't breathe. No matter how far I run, I can never hide from the fact that you are gone and not coming back. I can only have faith that you are with God and that someday I will see you again and we will have a joyous reunion in Heaven. Since I can't see you or touch you or kiss you, I posted this photo of our wedding kiss and can imagine you are still beside me. Please watch over us and keep us in your prayers.