I couldn't get you out of my mind yesterday and found myself just wishing you could be close enough to share the feelings I am feeling. I just found out my nephew is expecting a new baby. My brother Terry has one grandson and this will be his second. My other brother is expecting his first grandchild too at anytime. I am so happy for them but at the same time I am so sad for some reason. That may be be a joy I never experience. I saw the joy being a grandpa brought you and I believe there is no greater joy and pride. You always told me Todd would make me a grandmother someday,but I am not sure it is meant to be. I miss you so much and wish you were here to hold my hand.