My Dearest Foster: I never knew til you were gone how many pages of my heart you were on. The pain, it never ends, and your memory seeps into the pages of my mind, and I keep the pages turning. I don't know how to let you go you are so deep down in my soul and many times I feel helpless so hopeless and so alone without you. My heart, its like its a door that never closes. How I miss you. I've talked to friends, I've talked to myself I've talked to God. I prayed to be strong and I know that life goes on, but I still miss you. I've tried to be so strong and yet I know that I've been weak and I still miss you, I've done everything to move on like I'm supposed to and the way I know I have to, but I'd give anything for one more minute with you. One more moment to tell you all the things I never got to say the goodbye I never got to tell you. How I miss you.