Papaw. Today has been 4yrs since you've been gone and it seems like yesterday when we were spending our summers on the houseboat and in Crossville. Things have changed sooo much since you left and I can't help but to wonder if it would've still been like that if you were here. I miss you like crazy papaw and I can't wait until the day I get to hug you around the neck again. I miss walking around in your Spongebob T-shirts and building tents in the living room. I was thinking the other day about that little sandbox that me and Whitt had in side yard. I miss those days Papaw. Now that we're living in the house that we had all of our memories in..it seems easier to deal with you being gone but at the same time it sometimes makes it harder. I feel like I should just be able to holler into the living room and hear you yell back. I never thought this day would come..but it has..and the only thing I can think of to do to make it easier is to ask you to help me through and guide me through the right decisions. I know I'm old enough to do it myself but I wanna go back to when I had you helping me out and telling me what your opinion is. I love you Papaw forever and always. I'm going to the graveyard today. I don't know how I'm going to handle but I'll be ok. I love you sooo much and I miss you more than anything in this world.